starving for music

even though ive been playing my drums and guitar it doesnt feel as if im really connecting with my instruments..and i've realized this has very much to do with the fact that i am not comfortable expressing myself lately...persay 'letting it all hang out' ..through the music ofcourse :p...im missing that creative paintbrush that used to swing wildly...i feel if i focus hard and am able to move out into a stable atmosphere everything from there will fall into place, just another level of freedom im chasing after....the rest of this summer will be very interesting